One of the things I liked least as a drinking person is that I was afraid of everything. I had no self-esteem, I was scared of new situations and new people. This caused me to stick close to what I know and to not experience a lot of things. I remember one time, when I lived in Los Angeles, there was a class I wanted to take. It was free and all I had to do was drive to Los Feliz which was pretty close to my home in Hollywood. This was something I had wanted to do for a long time. I found the class and the place, but I couldn’t find anyone to go with me. I drove to Los Feliz, I got to the place, and I pulled into the parking lot. My mind was fluttering with excitement about the possibility of fun and meeting new people. But it was also filled with fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of people, fear of myself and leaving my comfort zone. I turned around and left. I couldn’t even make it in the door.
Some time later, I heard someone say they tell themselves daily to ‘be a little braver’. I say these words to myself every single day, and I need it every time. I always say to my clients, and when I do speaking engagements, that we have to actively participate in our lives. I have to actively seek recovery, work, friends, activities…. These things, life, is not going to come to me if I am sitting on my buns on my couch. I have to be a little braver to achieve the things I want and to create the life I always dreamed of.
How could you be a little braver today?